Cute Shannon Thoughts

Shannon came home from preschool and announced that Asher is in love with her. I'm not happy about this as we do not condone this type of imitating at age 4.

I was trying to tell her that she needs to play with everyone at preschool. She then said that she has other friends and preschool, 14 friends.

I said "That's a lot of friends"

She said "No, Mommy one hundred would be a lot of friends"

Ellie thoughts

Ellie told me a few lovely things yesterday.

"Mommy, when I'm a grown up girl and have a house of my own, can I still come over to your house when ever I want? And will you cook me dinner because you are the bestest cook"

At bedtime she said,

"I store up all your hugs in my heart so I can keep them forever"

Back dating

I'm going to back date some posts. I originally created this blog as an online memory of my kids lives.

I owe it to them to continue.

Deep Sadness

That's how I've felt since Ian was born in February of 2010. I feel like I'm trying to crawl out of big, deep hole that I can't see the top out of. I feel like I take two steps out and the fall back five steps.

I'm not even sure of the nature of my depression. I've never thought it was true post partum depression. I think it just seemed to coincide with Ian's birth.

I can pinpoint exactly how it started. I have a relative who is very cruel to me. She's someone who goes out of her way to point out how stupid I am, how ugly I am, and every poor choice I've ever made. Unfortunatley, she chose to do this right after Ian was born. I've usually been able to make a quick recovery from her remarks but this time I just couldn't.

It was made worse by my husband. Bob is a great man. One of the many reasons I fell in love with him is his forgiving heart. Of course, now almost 15 years later, it's one of the things that drives me crazy. Since he is so forgiving, he practically gives this relative permission to speak. He strives to have a balance between being forgiving and being a doormat. Unfortunately, it didn't play out so well for me this time.

A year after Ian was born, in February 2011, I became the victim of work place bullying. Without my knowledge, pictures of me that were rather unflattering were taken and texted around my agency. Having to walk into a place every day knowing people were laughing at you behind your back is very difficult. I don't really have any options, I have 3 girly girls and a little boy who are dependent on my job. They've been the only reason that I drag myself out of bed every day.

I don't really have any friends. I'm not really a person that most people like. I'm usually tolerated and then quickly ignored. I'm pretty forgettable. My husband works hard for us and I really miss him. I keep trying to keep a brave face for the kids but they notice. Ellie asks me frequently to stop crying.

I'm not really sure where I'm going with this but I hope by getting it out in the public internet that it will cause things to change

Happy Easter 2011!

Sad Words

Lauren had a meltdown at ballet which is nothing unusual. However, during the middle of it she cried and said "I don't want to be that girl with Autism. I want to be that normal girl. No one else my family is girl with Autism. I want to be like all of other people."

I knew it was coming, it didn't make it easier, but I knew it was coming.

And it sucks just as much as I thought it would.

Wordless Wednesday

Scrapping the bottom of the barrel

Somtimes, when you are the youngest, you have to eat what you can find. Even if it's a raw potato.

St. Patrick's Day Parade 2011

It was a great day for a parde. We were so sad to miss the 2010 parade but it was pouring and we had a brand new baby. Neither of those were true this year.

We spent some time waiting for the parade.

St. Patrick's Day Breakfast 2011

Cake Massacre

Obviously, Ian really enjoyed his cake.

Look at me!

Could it be??? Could I actually be one?



Yes, yes I am!

Light Saber

Let the Jedi training begin

Flag

Shannon has learned a son in preschool titled "The Red, White, and Blue". It goes

"The Red, White, and Blue
The Red, White, and Blue
The Stars and Stripes of Liberty are
Red, White, and Blue"

Well, no one told her that she's singing about the United States Flag. We'll be driving down the interstate and she starts yelling "Mommy, it's the red white and blue"

Wordless Wednesday

Go Upward!!!

Lauren is cheerleading for Upward basketball. She loves it. Her favorite cheer is "Dribble It, Pass It".



Watching the game.



Sitting for prayer.

When I grow up...

I'm going to be a princess and walk around the castle. That's what princesses do.

- Shannon age 3

11 month Bear picture